WHOOOOHOOO

好久好久没有写过blog了，久到令自己都不晓得自己有blog。为什么会突然间想写呢？应该是我自己都不知道要把我开心与不开心的事情跟谁分享吧。开始我故事吧....

最近我觉得好孤单+好寂寞+好boring啊~因为你吗？去了新+坡之后，我真的变得好寂寞~

偶尔我会想起如果你现在在我身边有多好啊，我会紧紧抱着你+你说“我真的真的好想你啊” 

偶尔我会想起为什么那时候我却没有+你好好到外旅行的经历？只有金马仑~

偶尔我会想你在新+坡会不会有第二个，好没有安全感啊~

偶然会想你到底在那有没有想我？好怕你想的是别人~

懂吗？那天你离开怡保，我哭了整个晚上，甚至不管我有多累+眼睛有多肿+头有多痛，都在半夜不睡觉争取时间+你信息。我哭是因为我们出来见面的机会就很很很少了，我自己觉得很没有安全感，好怕好怕你去了新+坡后我们感情破裂，还没等到你回来我们就分手了~我以为我的假期因为有你而我不会过得无聊~可是现在就是没有你在我身边，我不止感得无聊我还很痛苦，因为我真的好想好想好想见到你~

 这张照片我最喜欢的啊！

我开始羡慕了

真搞不明白，以前不管别人说我时常给他骂，可是我都会说这是情趣。
真搞不明白，以前不管其他情侣多甜蜜都好，可是我不感兴趣。还有很多很多~
我的心里一直想我们都是一对很甜蜜的情侣~因为只要爱+体谅就可以了。
现在发现原来不是这样的，我真的开始很羡慕别人了，做什么其他情侣可以天天都一起的？
做什么其他情侣可以一大班坐在一起吹水+一起玩的？可是我不可以。因为我不可以，所以慢慢+他一起，怎么发现自己是被遗忘的？
家人朋友都很重要~我不重要~
我真的很羡慕其他情侣。很多东西我们之间是没有的~可是我看在其他情侣.....诶，说不出感觉~
一句说完！重友轻色，你越来越严重啦！！我很没有安全感了



哈哈哈哈哈哈哈，我的笑也几假下><
写写罢了，因为我真的不知道要去哪里说出我自己的不满！还有很多，可是不懂得如何表达！我真的苯啊！诶

我的男人。。。看啦

1、如果你有我，请你不要再和别的女人暧昧。如果我也这样，你会愿意吗？

2、如果你爱我，请你回复我的短信或是电话，因为你不知只要见不到你，我是多么的担心和想念.....

3、如果你有我，就不要老看那些路边的美女，起码不要在和我一起的时候看~

4、如果你有我，请在我需要你的时候尽量尽快的回到我身旁，因为我需要你的肩膀。即使你无法到达，再忙也要回个短信或是电话。

5、如果你有我，请你在我悲伤的时候给我一个肩膀（不要怕累），然后你再像哄小孩子一样轻轻的拍着我说：“亲爱的，你还有我呢，有我在，永远别怕......”

6、如果你有我，请不要摆一副自以为是的臭脸，更不要太大男子主义。爱情是平等的，真正了解和互相体谅才对。

7、如果你有我，请你记住所有对我的承诺，既然说了就不要背弃。

8、如果你有我，请你一直牵着我的手，不要轻易的松掉，要给我幸福！

9、如果你有我，请让我天天开心。不要做出我讨厌的东西（+女生出去，+女生谈天谈得很密的+去club+一直认识女生)

my heart is pain now....

sorry............sorry.................sorry............sorry............
now....i only know to say sorry to you.....because i only know i give so many vexed thing to you
yesterday,you acc me....i only saw your moody face looked at me.....but when i saw you looked your ex megs....you smile*  (heart was pain--ING)
i so angry at that time....you know?but i fake fake didnt looked it...(ngo hei em hei hou sor ah??)
when you pull my hand walked at parade,,,you can let go my hand to busy reply her megs....
her megs,you can reply so many thing for her....but me??
sorry....i cannot make you happy to reply my megs like her...
she came back here....is your happy day....right?
i really dunwan think too much....but i dunno how to concern myself....
you dun let me saw your 2 converse....nvm lah
when you reply her megs,i feel like 1 person at there gam ah....

a lot of things happen today...

my jimui miko yong because of her bf wan broke with her this reason..she was cry a whole day in class...we concern she a whole day...and i also wan to help her to talk with her bf...whether can convince her bf..
im sorry...i talk a lot of thing to her bf also cant help her...:(((
hope her bf wont really do that...miko(pls dun cry anymore,our jimui will heart pain)

after school,because kuan kuan wan practice basketball+wicky bf was fetch her go back...miko also follow they...my sh dear also wan back home early.....so tyan tyan+me stay at canteen talk talk....we chat so many thing..
thanks....because i moody,,so she treat me eat...tq very much....
at bus,i also wan thanks kuan kuan...she really use her heart to listen wht i saying...thanks^^

kuan;;;;here i wan thanks you....because you will sms concern me...and i wan say sorry to my jimui too...because my moody face also make you all also no mood too...;(
and now was nothing to my dear...it will go back b4....dun worry about me+my dear lah....

suddenly,that yuk choy TOP....she wan me monday go on the stage..because i say mandarin let her hear dou...aiyo...fuck
she wan me call all the yuk choy student dun say mandarin.....(say fuck you)
i was so angry at that time,but i saw the sorpo kuan kuan...always say look forword monday...give her zha dou-,-(she laugh non-stop)
hope her forget it....

最后的补上

最近，发觉自己一直都在自己骗自己。其实他有很多时候，我都不喜欢。我不能接受。

一直以来，我都是以他为主。就算我多么的不喜欢，我也忍声吞气。

我一直以为我爱他，他爱我就够了。

可是直到刚才，我发觉我忍得麻木了。就连很生气他的时候，我是没有了以前那样的泪水了

我知道他不喜欢的东西，我真的不去做（除了我要你陪我，我真的很野蛮）

我一直以为我们是最好的一对。我错了，不！

我真的很想让他知道我不喜欢什么，可是我知道，就让他知道也是没用的。他也是一样的会做

我们是做不到，不为了其他女生而吵架。

他的生活里，到处都是女生朋友。

而我，是一个很自私，很霸道，很不大方的女朋友

可是我真的有尽量的改，可是他并没有为我而改过一点。而是越来越严重。

我真的很怕我自己控制不住会讲出我以后会后悔的话。

所以我选择不回信息，我知道如果给他知道我不是睡觉了。他也会生气我

以前我以为真真爱一个人真的很难啊。就算现在我很爱那个人，下一秒我就会很讨厌他。那是以前的我。

直到我+他在一起，我真的是变了好像活着每一分每一秒都有他的世界。

我很开心他能够出现在我面前。

我认为他是最好的男生，可是发觉我又错了。

一次一次的hurt了我的心，一次一次的相信他。

可是我换来的是今天的地步。

我很绝的讲一次，我真的不想再忍，再为了他生气什么的。我真的很怕我自己会爱他变恨他

现在我真的要好好想下我要的答案。

对不起，可能现在我真的弄得你不开心。

my busy dance life...

hey...back here again..because today didnt got sch again...and didnt back studio too...boring day-,-

i think my busy dance life will start at next week...:) wakaka

because i will take part performance+competition in July+August+September...expect it;))

my performance the dance training already have 2 month,already learned 2 song of dance..great,,,right?

Next,my teacher will choose 1 more day to training who will take part competition in August at Kl..

Yeah Yeah Yeah...

1 week dance 5 days...my sister back malaysia also wont everyday stay at home with her...happy sei ngo;))) wakakakakaka

i will be a very hardworking to learn of this..because i wan to win a prize back home...

studio will have a dinner after competition,,i also have performance that night...kikiki

if i can win that competition,,also can clb that night
dear,frds,family!!!pls support me;))) give me a power;) haha

my art class life will end at next year...goodbye yuk choy....goodbye frds...;(
and goodbye "TOP" (i think yuk choy student will know who is top)

my feeling.

today didnt got sch..stay at home today..boring until die ah-,-and miss him until die;((
a lot of things were happened today...my dear told me,he dunwan got gf recently..because he worry about his future and some pressure...(i really scare his choose to end our relationship,although i told him if you really unhappy you can choose to end of this)
i happy to hear that he wan me continue to be his gf...thanks..
look at this chosen,i really know that my dear really love me so much....same as me..

another things is my jimui miko and his bf....when she call me,,i sad to hear that..(his bf wan broke with her)
and she tell me,her bf was switch off his phone dun let her find him...;((
this whole night i was concern her in phone,,i unhappy to hear that she was cry non-stop</3..heart pain
but lucky her bf was find back her...but need time....hope they can hurry up make peace^^